Three Weeks

Well, there you (I) have it.   Nothing earth-shattering, just a few itchy early days and then doing the 'slow walk' of remembering why not to drink.  Not thinking about whether I can moderate (I can't), why it's not fair (life's not fair, but for me it's better sober), when I might drink again (hopefully not anytime soon, preferably never, but at least not in the next decade), what will happen tomorrow/whether some other human or organization will or will not behave the way I want them to (they probably won't but I have no control, so why waste the energy), and other similar questions I already know the answers to.  Trying to think about today, how much better I feel after a night of sober sleep (19 nights of sober sleep, the first 2 were a little rocky :)), how fortunate I am in almost all things in life (not grateful for Donald Trump, but almost everything else is pretty good), and how to stay on an even keel/avoid overwhelm, which I have concluded is a major trigger for me.  May devote an entire post to that one, but for today, suffice to say that's a biggie.

Happy Sunday!

No more dress rehearsals

Well, I'm back.  Regrettably not to report that 2015 was a stellar and 100% sober year - 2015 was overall pretty stellar, but the 100% sober part not so much.  Go figure - stellar life and still can't dehydrate the wolf.  I 'drifted' about 2.5 months in last year, and then more or less sunk into the lather, rinse, repeat cycle of pretend moderation that is simply not workable.

Day 7.  Trying again - third time hopefully will be the charm.  I want it to be the charm since I'm turning 55 this year and only have so many days left on this planet.  No more dress rehearsals, you know?  Gotta get it right in THIS life, this time around.

Not a lot else to add today that would make a lot of sense, but I'm here and I want to be here and be sober.  Working on making it a great day and a sober weekend.  Hope you are too!

Hugs,

SR